I'm not the best blogger. I had the best of intentions and well, sometimes life gets in the way! I had all these blog ideas in my head, I'd think "oh I'll blog about that later" (lets not even get into how much of a nerd that makes me..) and then when later (when the kids were sleeping) came, I either had too much laundry, cleaning, hubby time or I was holding or nursing IJ. So even if I was actually on the computer, I couldnt type more than 3 words at a time, one handed! Plus, when you pair that with the fact that I think only my husband and my Down South Sista (hahaha Andi that's what I'm going to call you:) were reading this, both of which usually know anything important ( or not important just neurotic) anyway, it just fell to the back burner. But now I'm back! Why? I don't know, I felt like writing and getting things off my chest.
So. An Update? Sure, why not?
Let's see. I am trying to have a great summer with my kids and that's mostly going ok. I am feeling very stressed and on edge (I'm a donkey on edge! We've been watching Shrek lately..) lately and I really don't like it. I'm trying to work on it, and today I took my kids to the Aquarium for a picnic and I dawdled with them, looking deeper at things and they calmed my soul. Then we went to the Subfest and even though I didn't want to, I went on the ferris wheel and I know it made them so happy. Then I played silly with them in the front yard. I don't want the memories they are making to be of me being overwhelmed.
Why am I so stressed and overwhelmed you ask? Well in 3 weeks from tomorrow I will be in my minivan on the way to Ohio. The contents of my home will be on a moving truck on their way to a storage unit in Ohio. My son will be starting school who knows where and we will be living ?who knows where? I am trying my very hardest to just trust God on this, and for the most part I am. It's just a transition I've known was going to come for a long time and now I just don't really know how I feel about it. That's a whole 'nother post though...
Now since I really have to be difficult, I have some medical tests to do in the next two weeks too. I went to yearly "well woman exam" and as it turns out, all was not "well".
No need for alarm, but now in the midst of all the moving, summer fun I am also cramming a mammogram with ultrasound in there. My dr felt some dense tissue that is more than likely due to the fact that I'm still nursing. (yes, yes, he's almost two. Get over it) But it's better to be safe than sorry and to get it out of the way on the Navy's dime.
So, no need to worry, she's pretty sure it's all fine and I am too. I'm just not really looking forward to it!
On to the nursing. It's Thursday night as I'm writing this. I haven't nursed since Monday night. IJ is not very happy about it but is surviving. I think we may be done, he is sleeping better, waking up less now that he knows he's getting nothing but cuddles! I am sad and excited at the same time!
The boys are all doing well, IJ is talking up a storm. He is starting to string words together, not full sentences like the other two were at this age, but that's ok. He gets his point across. T is getting so big and riding his bike like crazy this summer and reading like nobodies business! I love it. IL is so funny but boy is he a handful! All in all, I've got nothing to complain about! I will try to keep this a little better updated. For who? who knows:)